Today was first day not taking medication in a while. It’s not out of my system yet, but I already feel better. I’m sure it’s just in my head, but I already feel more like myself than I have in a few months. After I got all crazy researching on Monday, I found a lot of scary side effects. I think I have sleeping difficulty, sudden unexplained weight loss, mood swings, emotional changes, exacerbated depression, suicidal thoughts, and maybe even amphetamine psychosis.

On some level I can’t help but think that maybe the crazy that I’ve been lately isn’t really my fault. But I know I need to take responsibility for it. Genuinely. Even if my medication was making me crazy and making me not be me, I still am accountable for my actions.