I miss my daddy.
i can't wait to see my family soon.
which is so weird, b/c i never get along with them that well.
i think i'm just kinda lonely
i have lots of friends
they just all have other things to do
like spouses
so i talk to daniel more
and wendy more
and my mom more
at least i know they're always there
which is comforting
even my moms annoying text messages are good sometimes
it's better than not getting text messages
it's just weird how much my life has changed
i can leave my phone at home all day
and not miss it, or miss anything

maybe i'm feeling a little bit better
but really i think i'm just feeling less
more numb
not really caring
just getting up and going to work
and doing it over and over again
well i guess that's untrue
i was happy most of the day yesterday
but it disappeared as soon as i had the free time
to remember
how much i miss my best friend

this is depressing me
maybe i'll write later
if i feel like iti keep trying to write more
like i was told to, b/c it's supposed to help
i just don't feel like it most of the time