So i was told that i'm not the only one looking at this
on the one hand i expected it, since i did tell one person about this
on the other hand, i really thought he'd given up on me by now.

curiosity killed me, so i added a tracker.
yes, i will say i'm surprised that i'm so popular. only about 15 hits today.
yes, i'm also surprised that certain people know about this, the place where I tend to write my absolute private thoughts. I'm glad i'm a little prudish and censor some things.

A quick word to my three favorite visitors:

1.) I'm happy you care. If you don't care, I'm happy that I incorrectly think you do. Either way I'm happy. And i miss you. Terribly.

2.) i have really mixed feelings about you. It's nice that you are even the slightest bit interested in what's going on with me, on the other hand it seems like maybe you should either move on and let it go, or just talk to me if you want to know what's going on. I'm not several times a day interesting, don't overestimate me. If you care, try to work it out. If you don't, be the good person that I know you can be, and quit bathing in my misery.

3.) Then there's you. Don't you find it even the slightest bit hypocritical? I'm sure you've figured out by now that I have written some pretty private things here. As i don't really believe in privacy, I put this out in the open, and I'm not upset that people found it. But i am upset that you seem to have a double standard about what kinds of things are acceptable. And i'm disappointed in whoever told you about this site, they should have been smart enough to know that was a bad idea.

I'm also flattered. But seriously, have some self-respect and go enjoy the wonderful life you've created for yourself and quit worrying about what it is that i'm doing this week. That's not offensive, it's what someone should have said to me a long time ago.

I'm still going to post if I feel like it.
Look if you feel like it.
Just know it's not a secret.