ever since last bible study, i haven't been able to get a few ideas out of my mind.
most people i know, most people i've met are genuinely nice people, they want to be happy, they want to live well, and they want the same for others, this is what I consider baseline.

Of course their ideas about what would make others happy are sometimes way off base, but right now i'm more concerned with their intention.

What trips me up are the people who don't fit this mold. The people who don't care about how others feel, who say/do/perpetuate mean things with no guilt or care. Don't mistake this for a holier than thou attitude, everyone does things that are mean sometimes, again I'm concerned with intent and with guilt.

When i'm a jerk it's pretty much exclusively for one reason - emotions. I act out when I'm upset and when my feelings are hurt. Sometimes it takes a long time to recover from hurt feelings - like with Erica and I. Sometimes it's impossible. I guess the point is that it's never coming from a dark place and it's never without guilt.

I want others to be happy, I enjoy making them so. I want to be happy. I don't think either should be at the others expense. I still have hope - the Cardinals did win the World Series after all.