I can't sleep because i'm worried about daniel
i'm still waiting for a call from his friend
i feel guilty like i should have known it was this bad
and i should have done something about it
now he's gone and got himself stuck in the psych ward over easter
well probably, again, still waiting for that call
i hope i didn't give him any bad advice
he wants to withdraw from the semester
he hasn't gone to call for a few weeks i guess
he's just really depressed
i think this is sorta like what happened to brian
i wish i had my old friend to talk to about these kinds of things
speaking of which... four hearings in Fort Collins early May
why am i such a chicken
why can't i just do what i need to do
get it over with
i guess i'm kinda terrified of getting it over with at the same time
of having to accept life and close this book
for my own sanity though, i should force myself
it would be so easy to go on that trip
it would be so easy to say i'm in town, you need to see me
to make sure it happened
the problem is that it would be so hard to not yell
to not cry
to be done
i don't know, i don't want to think about it right now

pray for daniel.