I left my book at home, so i've just been doing a lot of thinking and no studying per say.  Can't wait til i'm back to my book.  I did something stupid on Thursday night.  It's because I was drunk.  And being egged on.  I shouldn't have done it...but...I did do a really good job of only being nice, and honest, and defending people who weren't available to defend themselves. I need to keep trying harder though.

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I've been doing a lot of thinking about what love is and what it's not.

it's probably sleeping on the couch b/c i'm uncomfortable

it's probably getting me fantastic presents on time

it's probably trying not to do anything that could accidentally lead me on

it's probably not talking about important things b/c i don't want to

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it's probably just wanting to stay in a room forever together

it's probably relying on you and trusting you 

it's probably making each other a better person

it's probably being unbelievably happy and wanting to scream it to the world

or being unbelievably sad and having trouble not screaming it to the world

it's probably not giving up hope even when things seem hopeless

things are never hopeless

things aren't over until their actually over

you can't just pretend they are

i don't believe in over when there are still feelings