Tonight Tonight

I've been trying to keep my spirits up all night, but i'm running out of steam.
I have no right to be mad or irritated about anything.
I have no right to care what brian is doing.

But that doesn't mean that I don't want to know.
I'm used to knowing what he's doing all the time.
I liked it that way.

Stacey was gone for 4 hours. I really tried to occupy myself.
To do what he said, to think about something else everytime he pops in my head.
It's just exhausting.
I don't want to do it anymore.
I don't want to do my life like this anymore.
I know what I'm supposed to do - change my life so that I like it.
I just don't know how to do that. I can't control other people.
I can make my life be the way I want it to be.
You can't force someone to love you.

But you can tie them down and keep them from being with anyone else.