A world where this is the way things are is not a world I want to live in.

My life is not working. Why should I keep doing it.

I feel dead already. Like I’m just pretending everyday. Nothing is changing, nothing is getting better. It doesn’t matter how hard I try.

I’ve tried taking control of it. It doesn’t work. I’ve tried not caring. It doesn’t work.

The truth of the matter is – I have no control and I care a lot. What the hell am I supposed to do now?