had a really good session today
it's nice to be reminded how great i am
and to be told that i'm rational
if this dude wasn't 79
i'd be smitten

i just layed it out
i want him to be sure
i want to know that when he's in bed at night
and everything is quiet
that he pictures himself growing old with her
and if that's true, then
it's true
and it's the way things are supposed to be
except
that he never said he was sure of that
and i've never truly believed that
some say
i wouldn't believe it
even if he did say
but i do believe that when i hear the truth
i can believe it
and accept it
and just be happy for him
like i've always wanted to

it's dumb that i've always wanted him to be
out of this world happy
yet i made him so unhappy

i may be rational today
but i'm still dumb