i don't know if i'm going to get through today

i'm not unmotivated

i'm just pathetic

i just can't seem to be motivated for anything for the right reasons

i feel like a piece of shit

i worked out this morning

because if i lose weight maybe brian will like me more

i studied for the bar at lunch

because if i'm closer to brian, he has less option to avoid me

i yelled at daniel about finding my missing stuff

because i really want the stuffed animal that belonged to brian

i watched some "how i met your mother"

because brian likes that show and maybe it'll make me more interesting

i read a book - only like 10 pages, but i don't have that much time

because reading books makes people smarter and maybe brian will like me more