Dear Heavenly Father,
It's good to be reminded that your laws aren't in place to keep us down or bind us, but to protect us from hurt and to create the happiest existence possible on this earth.  It's so easy to fall into the trap of feeling like the rules are constricting and keeping me from what I want to do.  Please help me to remember that what I want to do is dumb, what you demand from me is what is necessary.  Please help me to relinquish control of my life, especially regarding Brian.  I really miss Brian.  The few small reminders of how things could be, of the dynamic, just reminded me of old things and stirred up old feelings.  I don't understand this.  I can't deal with this on my own.  I know that I have to be patient, to continue to leave this up to you.  Please help me to not interrupt or misconstrue your plan.  I just want to do the right thing.  Please be with me and help me to focus my thoughts as I go to sleep.
In Jesus Name I Pray
Amen