Sunday, May 13, 2012


Not completely my thing, but really speaks to how I feel right now.  It's been easy to find music to fit my mood, but hard to find music to improve it.

Today was rough.  Today I was caught up in myself.  Tonight I've been bombarding myself with how wrong that is.  I'm trying to be caught up in myself less often, much less often.

Worry says that we don't quite trust that God is big enough, powerful enough, loving enough to take care of it.
Stress says that we think the things we are involved in our important enough to merit placing God behind them.

Stress and worry are the crutches I lean on, the mountains I hide behind, and the biggest issue that I need to deal with.  I worry that no one will ever love me for who I am.  I worry that I won't be able to live up to others and my own expectations.  I worry about getting my work done.  I worry about getting to work on time.  I worry about my family.  I worry about everything.  I stress about work.  I stress about my personal life.  I feel so overwhelmed by stress that I don't have time to devote to God.  My goal is to try to redirect my stress and worrying whenever I catch myself doing it.  This is not an easy task, but I'm determined to try.

Dear Heavenly Father -
Tonight I want to hand over all my stress and worries to you and trust that you will take care of them.  I say I want to and not that I will because I recognize how difficult this is for me.  Please forgive me for the difficulties I have in giving up control and acknowledging that everything is in your control.  This is your world.  We are here to praise you and operate at your command.  Please be with me as I go to sleep and hand over each worry to you, one-by-one and help me to recognize the peace and happiness that this brings.
In Jesus Name
Amen

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